We went to the school's Open House last night and roamed the halls! She saw her "desk" (table for four), cubby, birthday sign and the rest of the class. Mrs. Sorter seems very nice and ... let's say... VIBRANT. She is full of energy, that's for sure! I have no doubt that will endear her to the class and help her stay on top of a bunch of Kindergartners.
Our girl will be the youngest in the class, but I expected as much. The next youngest (boy) has a birthday 3 weeks before hers. I sure hope we're making the right decision by sending her when she won't be 5 until November, but the teachers have all assured us that she's ready. She's doing addition and subtraction, writing her full name and now her little brother's! She knows all of her letters and numbers by sight, and counts to 56 without stopping or making a mistake. To hold her back another year seems wrong when she's already doing so much and begging us to go to class and ride the bus. She seems a bit nervous now, but once she gets through the first week and the new routine, she'll be fine. This is our last weekend of freedom! I can't believe we'll be starting a 17-year journey of school now (including a few years from now when Bubs starts).
Just think: She was born 7+ weeks early and is starting Kindergarten 85 days before her 5th birthday. Maybe at this rate, she'll have her Master's by age 17. ;)
Look at the pictures my little wonder drew two days ago:
"This is me walking M & L"
"This is Ariel and my seahorse and my seal pillow pet"
The inspiration to this blog (Proverbs 3:5) is the answer I needed for a decision I have to make. I have wavered from my good intentions and let greed/security settle into my heart, when in fact, "security" (of God's grace) will come when I let go and share what I have. It may not be much, but I'll finally be able to close that last chapter of The Book of the Past (as I've come to refer to it). I still resent giving to someone who has no claim, but would I say that about the homeless mother asking me for shelter? Of course not. The fact that I'm bothered by a sibling wanting claim over something that is not his bothers me. I'm ashamed to admit it, but it's human nature that I'm trying to overcome. By writing about it and meditating, God has already given me the answer. I know I must give and be a cheerful giver, but I'm stumbling over that part.
Proverbs 3:6 - In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Jeremiah 29:11 - For I know the thoughts that I think toward you, saith the LORD, thoughts of peace, and not of evil, to give you an expected end. James 1:5 If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him.
While it was devastating and there are more questions than answers, I have faith that God is just waiting for us to embrace Him so he can lead us through this journey.
It is difficult to wait. The unknown can be more terrifying than the facts. The truth may deal a powerful blow.
What I know, without a doubt, is that God is nearer to us now than ever and we only need to open our hearts to receive Him. He's ready to hold our hands and walk is through the sand.
Dear Lord, I pray that you give this child the best possible prognosis. I pray that you keep her strength and courage up, that she finds You in her desperation. I pray the same strength, courage and abundance of love and support to her family as well. Please bless us all to come together under Your name to support them and provide a never-ending stream of Your love to them. Keep us strong and diligent in Your name, Lord. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Help me to remember what is important. Remove my anger, jealousy and resentment. Help me to remain focused on the blessings in life and on helping others above myself. Please bless me by keeping my focus away from pettiness and on the greater good. Please help me avoid the temptation of gossip and help me learn to forgive with a peaceful heart instead of a vengeful tongue.
Lord, help me to keep Jesus as the only one I turn to for advice. Let me remember that "talking it out" or "venting" to feel better is not the teaching of Jesus, but of man.
Calm my heart and open my eyes to Your truth at all times.
In Jesus' name, I pray.
“So letting your sinful nature control your mind leads to death. But letting the Spirit control your mind leads to life and peace.” Romans 8:6